What It’s Like To Be A Projector

I found Human Design around three years ago. I remember listening to a podcast on the way to work and quickly looking up my chart in the car, putting off the inevitable eight-hour retail shift. I had no idea what any of it meant. And I was frustrated – as someone who has always been into astrology, I thought Human Design would tell me what my personality was. Instead, it told me about the pragmatics of how I should best ‘operate’ in life – how to make decisions, how to enter into job opportunities and relationships.

It was intriguing, but I wasn’t ready. I wanted a Myer-Briggs personality type answer. HD was far more complex and would take time to figure out. Patience has never been my forte.

The topic seemed to keep popping up on the various podcasts I was subscribed to. So eventually it lead me to doing some digging – let me tell you, even just two years ago, most information online about HD that was archaic and clunky. It was the wild, wild west when it came to researching your HD chart. In fact, it was near impossible to understand any of it without booking a reading or investing a lot of money into video courses and textbooks.

I began to think about it more and tried to implement it, but it went against everything I’ve been taught growing up about how to move through life. It seemed ludicrous to someone who had always prided themselves on being a go-getter and busy person to suddenly wait for the invitation. Like what the fuck did that even mean?

HD is more like a puzzle. Not all the pieces are revealed to you at first, but overtime a picture begins to emerge. It starts to make sense.

The beginning of seeing the overall picture for me was when I booked my first HD reading with Jacyln Michele. I loved her blog Interior Creature which I had found sometime during 2019. The way she articulated my chart and went through each puzzle piece was what made things start to click for me. Prior to the reading, my chart just looked like a bunch of random symbols and numbers.  But afterwards, I began to finally understand the foundations of a HD chart – how it was built and what it was based on. 

Being a projector began to resonate on a deeper level. It was empowering instead of overwhelming. Projectors are said to be non-energy types, which in my opinion is not exactly the whole picture. Rather, projectors have fluctuating and inconsistent energy – they can be revved up and ready to tackle the world one moment, then exhausted and needing to nap the next.

Ideally though, it’s not this extreme – when you incorporate adequate rest and down time into your lifestyle, your energy levels are more stable. There are a few different types of projectors but I’m just going to talk about my type: the energy projector.

Energy projectors have at least one motor defined (not the sacral) and in my case, I have all three! The root, emotional center, and the ego/heart center.  It means I do have more energy than your average projector without any motors. My whole life I’ve been quite athletic, busy, and relatively energized. Likely, when I pick up on the energy of the generators and sacral beings around me, I amplified it and was able to push myself more than I needed. Especially when backed by my defined motors.

I tend to work really well in short bursts. I don’t want to work an eight-hour day, but I can work 3-4 hours and be really productive. And then I want to just rest and chill out for the rest of the day. By chill, I don’t always just mean lying in bed and napping (although that’s sometimes the case). But I love to read, research, go for walks, practice yoga – activities that feel replenishing and recharge my batteries.

Projectors are not here to hustle. I struggle with this A LOT because I’ve been brought up in a society which praises chasing after what you want, hustling your way into your dream job, pushing and “putting yourself out there” in order to achieve success.

I’ve always hated when I’ve had to do the initiating. It feels wrong, inauthentic and honestly plain uncomfortable. I hate writing cover letters. I hate having to convince anybody of what I’m worth and how I’m valuable. In the dating context, I’ve never been one to actively chase. But I’ve noticed, whenever I’m trying too hard to get someone to like me, the less they want to engage with me.

Projectors are not here to prove themselves by how much they do. Our true value is rooted in our perspective and the way we see the world. I identify deeply as an observer, someone who has always been interested in other people and wanting to understand the way they work. It’s why I’ve always been into astrology and honestly every other personality profiling system that exists.

I feel that I really see into others and could offer up soooooooooo much advice on how they could better use their energy and feel better. But the curse of the projector is that you shouldn’t share those opinions and insights unless you’ve been asked. Honestly, everyone could probably do this more – don’t give advice to people who haven’t asked you for it.

But it’s especially important as a projector. Giving unsolicited advice or offering premature insights will not be received well – it bounces back to you, they ignore it, or they get pissed off at you because they weren’t ready to hear the truth of what you see.

Waiting for the invitation isn’t actually a curse. It’s a strategy that protects your energy from wasting it on people who don’t want to receive it. It’s an energy drain when you go around telling everybody what they could do better, and they look at you like you don’t know what you’re talking about. In the past, it has made be bitter and resentful, annoyed and unappreciated.

When I realized it’s not my job to fix people or tell them everything I think they should be doing, it was a giant relief. Listening more and waiting for them to ask for your insight makes the interaction feel so much better because you’re being recognized first as someone who has a unique perspective. The cool thing is, the more I recognize this about myself, the less I feel the need to make others see it. It becomes this quiet knowing that others can sense. Ironically, they literally can’t help but ask for your take on their situation. 

The more I experiment with waiting for the invitation, the more trust I gain in the process of HD. It’s been a really slow process of implementing the small things over the last year(s), from creating healthier boundaries, prioritizing down time, to holding my tongue on spitting out opinions that weren’t asked for.

I feel like I’m uncovering more about myself everyday. Or rather, I’m allowing myself to be and stop looking towards everybody else to what I should be doing. It’s been super liberating and honestly I want to tell everybody I know about how amazing practicing Human Design is! Yet of course, I have to wait for the invitation. But I’m learning how to be content in these moments in between.  

image: Jônatas Tinoco

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